My hubby was able to take a week off of work to visit Holly our daughter ( his daughter , my stepdaughter...respectively.. just don'tlike the term "step") Anyway...he is having a wonderful time! He really needed to see his girls, Kelly and Holly! We have another girl coming as well... Kayla! Due in May to Holly and Troy... can't wait to go there. But in the meantime he is having a great visit in Arizona!!! Here is one of the things he has been doing! Among alot of other things, will post more pics as I get them.

2010 Bilzz

Here are some pics of the snow we got!!!

BLAH BLAH BLAH YAKKETTY SMAKKETTY

K ... my life is not to interesting. I spend most of my time hiding from the GREAT BLACK HOLE
( otherwise known as depression). I find it very challenging to throw myself out of bed each morning , particularly in the wintertime, (SAD= seasonal affected disorder) and am in an ongoing battle not to go on anti-depressant meds( which by the way never worked for me in the past and am not willing to go through the gambit of >>>>"no that one doesn't work for me .... "Ms. Bryan let's try this one " game for the millionth time " till we get it right scenario. Right now , i know it's not very encouraging but I miss my kids drastically and am i desperately love sick for my grand kids and a closeness i have never received but want to create in my kids but don't know how cause i have never experienced it as a child, and the time I have with them is limited. I want to know that my kids are HAPPY. Also I worry that they are treating their Husbands/ Wives respectfully and lovingly, the way that Jehovah has taught them to, ( I am not the best example ). And that they are being treated lovingly and with respect.
I wake up at about one in the morning worrying about how Kenny is doing, how Becca is , how Christina is feeling if Even is taking care of her and if Pat really misses me , and if Julie will love him forever and if Mike will be happy in the future and will make the right decisions . How Mike will pay for his health care, his car insurance if he will be truly happy. I wonder if my kids will ever forgive me for not doing more for them spiritually and physically, and for not protecting them from things that I never ever dreamed would happen... but did.And how it now effects them.
I wonder if my grand kids will ever really know how much I love them and want them to be safe, i want to be there to play with them , have close mom mom talks with them .... spend time listening to them ... REALLY listening to them and Hugging them and to have a truly happy life FOREVER.
Welll There it is ... the mundane part is that I go to work , and come home ... but it is at the wee hours of the morning that the real deal.... the true concerns that I have come out... and I can't do anything but pray about them.

As Requested>>>>>>:)

Today we went to our Special Assembly Day in Grantville, Pa. Just outside of Hershey. It went too fast! I already enjoyed the program with Pat Julie and Maddie in Cali.... but we can't have too much spiritual food can we:) I sat with Mike who picked seats beside Micah and his family( i usually sit up in on of the first two front rows.... find that I can concentrate better there, but conceded to Mike's wishes this time cause I will be sittin by myself when he is all grown up:( but I will be totally happy if he is actually going to the same assembly hall that i am assigned to ). One of the illustrations that the brother gave that stuck was during the talk ...Not using the world to the full... based on Pauls comment that the world had to offer was refuse. He noted that during the Sanitation Depts strike in NY a few years ago there was trash all over the streets and sidewalks... it was everywhere.....except in the front of this one house. The news crew investigated and asked the homeowner how he accomplished having no trash. He said that he would go around his house each evening ...gather up all of the trash ...place it in a box...wrappped it in pretty wrapping paper with a nice bow. He then proceeded to take it outside , placed it into the back seat of his car....left the window down just far enough that someone could reach in and unlock his door. He said every morning he would come out and the box would be gone!
Modern application: Satan wraps the refuse and trappings of the world up nice and pretty so that we want to expend time and energy away from our service to Jehovah, to aquire it. Then when we finally have it, it is still just putrid rotten refuse, and he has succeeded.

SOLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The house has finally sold!!! We are sooo happy!. One step closer to our plans to travel to be with our kids and Grandkids!. Course the belated sale pushed back the plans for at least 1 year.... but they are within reach now!!!! If this system lasts that long:)!

California 2009 Random Pics! Enjoy!

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Julie made some amazing dishes during my visit but the one that most touched my heart was the Taco/ Sundae one. Patrick said that a good childhood memory of his was when we had make your own Taco and Sundae Night, we would lay all of the fixins out and do it ourselves it was alot of fun....thanks to my sweet daughter, Julie I got to share it again with Patrick and for the first time with Jules and Maddie, what a sweet, sensitive and thoughtful person Julie is!
Then of course , the Special Assembly Day Pics! It was such a special privileged and treat to be able to be at a Spiritual event with Pat, Jules, Maddie and Judy. Judy is such a great grandmom, she helps so much. I am glad that Pat, Julie and Maddie have her. I feel closer to her as a result of spending some time with her during my visit, She has proven to be a strong spiritual stonghold for Julie and Pat.

Feeding the Fish

Ok...all of the grandkids love the fish in the pond that pappy made.... Ben , Bella, Hunter and kiari fed them this past summer.. and Maddie had me play a video of them over and over and over again from my camera!!!! This is for the Gkids... please play it for them! Love you guys bunches! In the New System... maybe we can have a pond! Maybe Pappy will be there to make it for us!!!

Cali... Surprise!!!! Sept 2, thru Sept 8, 2009

......Ok, I'm Back! The very first day both grand moms enjoyed a special treat! Maddie had her first Tap/ballet class. Sooo precious. It was great cause one of the other girls there was Maddie's friend from the Kingdom Hall! As you will be able to discern from the video , our Maddie is quite the little Tapper, and Free style dancer!

This is just a post .....

This post is just to say that we had very bad news that hit our family. Christina received some bad news... she had to go back into surgery to have the other sphere of her Thyroid removed. She has thyroid cancer!. As you can imagine, this was so horrible, ... Christina is doing fine.... I was a blubbering mess! Imagine , your little girl having something so terrible happen to her! I just wanted to gather her in my arms, pick her up and bring her home with the purpose of her "not playing adult any longer" and for me to take care of her and take all of the badness away. But soon I realized that I truly was helpless, not able to do anything but be next to her and give her hugs and try to keep myself from unraveling in front of her and my dears Hunter and Kairi. She proves to be the strong one , accepting what this system throws at her... and answering back with everything spiritual... proving how strong her love for Jehovah is. This spiritual sister will always prove to be an encouragement to me....

Oceaan City .....Again:) Sat....Aug 22

Barry and I loved the relaxing day at the beach soo much that we planned another trip the following saturday... despite the threat of "Hurricane Bill". all week long we were plagued by weather reports of thunderstorms and high winds and rough turf on the Eastern Shore. But we forged ahead with our plan. And we were thouroughly rewarded! beautiful weather! We couldn't get into the ocean but as you can see by the pics, we still had a wonderful time!

Ocean City Maryland

Ok.. We all needed a break! From Faye, to Barry always taking care of their 93 year old dad... to me, just wanting to see OC again, right down to Mike who just wanted to spend a good time at the beach cause he has been workin hard and Pioneering. We packed up he cooler, left at 4 am on Sunday August 16th. We settled in at the inlet side, where all of the "Day Beach" people go just to enjoy the beach for a day. We had a great time! Just vegging by the ocean. I started gettin alittle burned! so I wrapped up in some towels:) looks cute huh?.